hela hela rotane....

sthg unexpected happened today at lunch (yesterday rather...seeing that its now early wed morning). was happily walking ard when who shd i chance upon but my conductress from my angklung days way back when!! ahahahhhaha!..she was happily conducting a grp of nicely-clad innocent young ladies happily shaking the angklungs n hitting the kulintangs wif rhythm in their beat.

i loved it! its like looking back at me n my frens in our glory days. young n innocent. shaking the anklungs wif not a care in the world. what was in our minds then? hopes. possiblities. everything was possible back then man! watertap me began tearing before i knew it...its just so damm familiar. the songs...the conductress... the easy gait of the girls as they move to the beat..

we had sooo much fun practising for our performances. our practice hall was all the way in siberia... rite at the far end of the sprawling school grounds. we managed to keep our syf distinction the 4 years we were there...hard work cos we thot we couldnt make it both times! playing the angklung might look easy...but its hard work i tell you. other instruments can be played on their own...but wif angklungs you need many many players just so you get the full range of notes. n to get the notes played like as if its being played by a single player...to make the notes flow....that required the skilled instructions of the conductress. n boy was she good. cant believe she looked the same...THE SAME!!.....after all these years!!! how long has it been? 10-12 years????? i'm that old???? nooooooooooo

back then everything was sooo very simple. you're wif me or against me. everything's either black or white. we have our own convenient cliques...n its so easy organising a 'lets boycott dis girl or dat' campaign cos everyone wanted to feel that they belong...that they were part of a group. frenships formed seemed to last forever...nothing can break us apart. the idealism of youth!

think those days were my best school days ever. i wonder what happened to that girl. i know i'm a better person now. i definitely look better (hehhe!). I'm less petty now n more forgiving...a HUGE departure from my sch days.

but i wonder if sthg's lost along the way. what happened to all those hopes she harboured? all those possibilities? did she SETTLE? did she become ORDINARY? or is she in hybernation...waiting for the right moment to strike? one thing she's sure of....wif supercalourfragelistic spider around to give her support.. ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE!