ramblings of an unwilling bummer

I am a fresh graduate. Yes, fresh. Right out of the woods, or in this case, the mass of buildings way yonder at the ridge (kent ridge actually..hehhee). But sometimes I wonder whether I should use the word ‘fresh’ to describe myself. After all, I’m not exactly fresh right? I have officially been out of school for 6 months. Now, we wouldn’t call that fresh would we?

But come to think of it, I wouldn’t want to think of myself as ‘stale’ either. Hmm…’stale’…that word somehow gives me such negative vibes. I think the most appropriate word to use here would be a combination of those 2 words. So, I guess I’m what you people call (or at least what I would personally call) a ‘freshly-stale’ graduate.

I’ve never thought I would be unemployed, but well…here I am, an unwilling bummer. I cringe everytime I hear the label ‘bummer’ being given to me. But hey! I’m not a bummer by choice ok. It’s not as if I’m not doing anything right now. I’m on an all-out search for a permanent job.

It’s kind of funny when I talk about my situation on the net. Way back when I first started chatting, I always introduce myself as someone who’s still schooling, and somehow, that kind of gave me an existence. You know how people always start their conversations with mundane lines. Here’s a sampling of the kind of chats I get myself into..

Guy : hello
Me : hallo
Guy : intro
Me : for wat?
Guy : so that we can know each other better
(or)
for fun
(or)
I want to at least have an idea who I’m chatting with (I like this line by the way)
(or)
guy : ok ok…I’ll start first (which is the best way to start. After all, it’s the gentlemanly way of doing things)
guy : 26/m…..u?
me : oh….me 22f
guy : ohh….work?
me : nope
guy : school where?
Me : nope…not skooling
Guy : then wat? Housewife ah?

Don’t you think that’s bloody irritating? People are either schooling or working, and if not, they’re being the good housewife – staying at home obediently and looking after the house and the kids.

Chatting now is always exciting cos I love to see how the people I chat with react to my answers. I’m a very truthful person (though god knows why I want to be truthful on the net. Everybody else lies I bet..but noo…not me. I’m very naïve hah?) Anyway, since I’m so truthful and all, I cant help but tell them the truth about myself. So way back when I was still an undergrad, I tell people that I’m still studying. And if they were to ask for details, I’ll give it to them, and I’ll always have instant reactions after making that disclosure. Either they’d still be interested to talk to me (prolly cos they feel that they’re on ‘par’ with me.them being undergrads or equivalent), or they’d drop me instantly like a hot potato (reasoning out that they don’t like talking to intelligent girls).

Anyway, now that I’ve graduated and all, I cannot possibly say that I’m still schooling can i? so I usually say I’m a bummer. And whoa! The responses I get are all good! These guys would immediately feel that they’re better than me (not consciously of course), and thus would begin a conversation in which they would be advising me on what to do and all. At the end of it all I always get their contact numbers (I didn’t ask for it!). Somehow being a bummer upped my attraction yah….hehhe!