calling faith

i left the meeting feeling sad, and a tad disillusioned. i've always thought that this group of leaders were different, and have held them to a higher standard of behaviour and ethics. that plus the fact that they're a group of educators - they're all lecturers for god's sake!

so the blatant lying, fabrications of truth and bullheadedness displayed was shocking, and definitely unwelcome. my mind was reeling as the meeting went along. do i call their bluff, or do i play along? what the heck should i do??

i stayed to the very end, and listened to every word.

at the end, when there was only 5 of them left, i gave my 'speech'. it felt like i was lecturing my parents, which was NOT a good feeling.

i really hope things get better.

and that my (missing) faith (in the system, in what i'm doing) gets back to me.